Today, not that long ago

I met her a year ago today and am just as mesmerized by her now as I was then.  I had wanted her for so long.  It was exciting and shocking and scary all at the same time.  Now holding her in my arms as I write this, I still have those same feelings.  Every once in a while I look at the boy and say, "Can you believe we have a baby?" I am still in awe that I have the privilege of being her mom and that she is mine.  However, with that comes the responsibility of raising her, the thought of which leaves me feeling extremely inadequate.  As with all things in my life right now, I am taking things one day at a time, trying to savor each moment as it passes by.